On the second level of the bus, I decided to sit in the first row so I could hang my my wet umbrella. When the person sitting beside me saw I was going to sit next to him, he raised down his feet and sat more politely. Three seconds afterwards, I noticed I was sitting with a look-alike gangster guy. His style, body, and smell! But although I knew there were still a lot of empty seats if I wanted to move, I made up my mind not to as : he will have a not too good feeling, the situation is not really unbearable, I am not really a difficult person, and the top of that, the journey is only 15 minutes. How can't I not stand it?
In the very heavy rain, he must have been crazy to let all the aircon blew over our head. I didn't do anything for that as, I told you it's only 15 minutes, of course I could bear it!! He'd been earlier sitting and I didn't feel I had any rights to change anything around. I respected him for having all the controls.
Coughing after coughing... with a headset set on my ears.
I saw the gangster took out something from his bag. He opened a new mint candy and offered it to me. I didn't hear what he said, but I said, "No. Thank you."
He still kept talking to me so I put off the headset.
He : "Do you want some?"
I again said, "No. Thank you."
He : "Please. Have some. "
I : *Smiled and rejected nicely*. (Why did he insist, is it some kind of drugs?)
He : "It's really good for your throat."
I was really surprised to hear that sentence and him being so thoughtful. I didn't want him to know that I was doubting him. But I was also still in between It's in the package, it couldn't be drugs actually. But why is the hesitation still inside? and It's okay, if something happened with me, at least it's due to my trust to humanity.
(At last) I : "Oh. Thank you. I take one yah!"
Orange mint! And it tasted nice. Right after I tucked it in, I saw him adjusting the aircon to block the air. The gangster was an angel and I was actually a despicable human-being for being that suspicous and I was ashamed.
Yesterday morning, I passed helping out an old woman who looked lost about what bus she needed to take. But in my mind, "She should ask if she needs help." I thought twice whether I had to ask her or not before my bus came and in the end, I left before doing anything.
A few weeks ago, two young children still with their school uniform didn't bring their bus card and didn't have any coins to pay the fare. They had been asking a lot of people in the bus to exchange their money. Since the bus was too crowded, it's quite troublesome to dig inside my bag with a hand grasping the bus hanger. I let them wandering around for quite a long time and again.. I didn't do anything.
Perhaps I haven't since a kindness from a stranger since long long time. The moment the bus alighted, all of sudden I remember them, whom I should have done at least something, but I didn't. Really, oh really... I can be and must be much much much better....
No comments:
Post a Comment